2nd ..day...:))

Wow...I talk too much...referring to yesterday's blog..control...control...?  ...who needs control...:)) Spend few last day ...socializing ..big time..New Years eve ,another party on New Years Day at friends house and another one 'caroling" today...It was really nice and fun to see and talk to so many people,drink and eat delicious food , dance...but now I need to regroup and get down to basics...time for myself ...and "plain " life :)) Miss a good  book ,exersizing again , finding  the ground and balance..oh  and yoga too ..:))  Also miss talking to one of my friends...not in the same "circle" anymore...smart person...but with  very different point of view..discussions were bordering on fights...had to defend my point of view and define myself...It made me think , what I stand for and believe in...These kind of relationships have  much bigger impact on you , then initially you  would expect..They change you , make you grow, pushing you out of your boundaries and beliefs. We need people like that in our lives..."to push our buttons" , make us angry and upset sometime...passion after all is  a great force for us ..human beeings..:))It makes us feel alive... a little bit  like tango...love and hate..:))) ..never thought I will miss our fights...:)) but I do... :)))Maybe its just nostalgia of holidays...or ..fact  that too many people agree with me lately..where is "the loving challenge"..? Please tell me I am wrong about some life issues...:))) I can handle that :))..I think..:)) Well ..I dont miss fights/discussions..just the effect of it...what happenned in following days ,weeks or months...I changed ..I grew ...knew and understood  myself better , was "fuller"...Maybe, again I  will have a friend like that :))...just to "hate"  in the beginning and like at the end ...:) 2011 is here ..second day of it..dont feel any different..but I probably shouldnt in the first place ..we "enforce" this silly calendar to mark the passing of  time...because we cant think in other terms ...time defines us ..ticking away...How different would we be ( humans) if there wouldnt be any time issue...how whould we "mark' our lives...what would we find to "measure" our existance..? We are obcessed with numbers...weight,hight , age...etc...maybe in the future we wont be interested so much in this kind of "sizing up"   ...maybe we will find something that transcends the time and space and is part of us...maybe we already found it...just dont use it often enought or dont develop it into more approachable element...maybe ..religion can have this function ..or rather I should say spirituality...Breathe , Be ....Namaste :)))